I am NO pushover!!!

First of all, before I continue,...

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY TO MR. NG CHENG HAO!!!

Yes, my fellow alumni! May our good Lord continue to bless you richly. Here's to many more good years of singing and music-making! :)

I am in a terribly bad mood now, so please bear with me. This may be a long one, depending on whether I do fizzle out as I'm typing this post.

Everything went well this morning, with church and all. (I cancelled Leng Kee today, so that made me a much happier person.) Sufen led worship for small group today, and everyone was singing with their hearts. I enjoyed it. And after that, we all gathered around the piano and started singing songs from the musicals, courtesy of the books Ping-Loong and Yu Hsien bought. (Aiyah! Should've taken photo!) After lunch at Jumbo restaurant at Dover (which is actually a coffee shop), Sufen, Yu Hsien, Charles and I adjourned to Borders for a quick browse of books. It was fun going through the books, especially the 3-for-2 books selection, only to muse that we cannot find enough books to enjoy this offer. Unfortunately, I didn't have enough time to stay on and browse, so I got them to promise to do this again next week, when I have more time. Hope it works out... :)

Wait, I'm supposed to be in a bad mood, you say? Yes, I am. Read on...

Had read Terence's blog prior to this, where he ranted about customer service (or the lack of it). The cause of my bad mood was similar. Was at Jenny's wedding rehearsal at this certain place of interest in Singapore. I shan't disclose where (though my colleagues and SG members would know). It was ok at first, though I was slightly late, she didn't mind. Had borrowed the Korg Triton from church (thank God the loan process was easy!) and an amp from Mrs Tay with no questions asked (thank God x2!). Jenny got her guys to help unload the stuff from the car onto the trolley. (Oh yes, must put on record my thanks to Charles and Mike for helping me load the Korg Triton and its stand into my car from church! Thanks, guys! Appreciate it loads!)

Upon arrival to the function room where the wedding wil be held, the lady from the place told us that the electric circuit box exploded during a wedding dinner held there last night, and I wasn't allowed to plug in the Korg and the amp into the socket! What the @#$%! Then why in the world did I bother to load the Korg and the amp for?!?!?! I really felt bad for Dadsie and the guys for helping me load and unload the stuff to and from the car! The lady went on to say that this place of interest has done hundreds of weddings, and they are experienced at it, blah blah blah. So why is it that when such a thing like this happened, you don't even know how to bother to solve the problem? And to make matters worse, the lady told me that she plays the keyboard, so she knows what it's like, what to expect, etc., and that the instruments should be of the least worries, and what's more important is things like the walk-in, etc.! What the @#$% x2!!! So why am I, Elaine, NF, Charis and Hui Sze there in the 1st place?!?!?! I really felt like a sucker, and really felt I was wasting my time. I could have been in Borders browsing books with the rest, you know!

So there I was making a whole deal of noise. Thinking that I could resolve the whole matter, which I felt was getting out of hand, I just said, "OK, I understand the problem, we'll just practise the worship a cappella". Only to have her respond, "What do you understand?" I got so p***ed off with that response that I just walked away, right infront of everyone. The atmosphere at that time was very tense. Everyone came to me and said it's ok. I just found my own quiet space to cool down for a while. I overheard the lady complaining to some other people about why I'm making a big fuss about such minute things. I just left her alone. However, when all the i/cs had to come together to walk through the wedding proceedings with her, she was noticably much nicer to me. I don't know why. Which is well. Let's do things professionally, and get it over and done with, so we can move on with our lives.

Everything was ok after that, except that I forgot to prepare Mendelssohn's Wedding March CD. :( (sorry, Jenny x2!) The gals and I managed to find time to practise the worship songs quickly at one corner just before they had to shoo us out of the place, cuz they were closing.

Went for Lisa Ono's concert after that all the way at the Expo. Had to return the Lancer, so took the train. Luckily had my trusty Zen and my HP4 ebook to keep me sane company. The concert was ok. Lisa Ono was not particularly entertaining, probably cuz she wasn't very comfortable engaging chatter with the audience in English. I'm sure she would have cracked more jokes if we understood Jap. And the concert was super short! She came on at 8.20pm, and the concert ended at almost 10pm! Slightly more than 1.5h! The shortest concert I've ever been to, onsidering that I paid $60 for it! Could have just saved the money and just listened to her CD at home with my Bose sound system...

I hate to type this down, but I feel that many people are taking me for granted. Honestly, I feel that I'm doing a lot of things for this wedding, if not as much, definitely more than what the rest of the helpers are doing. Just hope it gets appreciated. On another note, now that I have the car more often, many people are assuming that I will give them a lift, or I can pick them up wherever they are to go places. Fine, granted that I do willingly offer lifts, but hey, you can't assume that I'll definitely give you a lift all the time! I do have moods, I do have other committments, you know! And please, if I don't give you a lift, it's nothing against you! Would you rather me give you a lift when I'm in a bad mood and endanger your life cuz I'll definitely be driving recklessly?

Having said that, I have to admit there are people whom I'm more willing to help than others. So woe to you if you fall into the "others" category.

And, if you ask me out, and I don't wanna go out, please DON'T insist and give me all kinds of reasons to say I must go! If I say I don't want, means I don't want. Period. Geddit? Don't you understand simple English!?!?!? (If you know me well enough, you know I will hardly reject anyone who asks me out. So if I really do reject you, it means I really don't wanna go out cuz I'm tired/in a bad mood/PMS/DMS...)

So to summarise, I AM NO PUSHOVER!!!

I bitched about the wedding rehearsal incident to Sufen via SMS, and she reminded me of this: "Whoever wants to be first in the Kingdom of God must first be a servant of all", and I am chalking up credits by doing what I'm doing. Now that I've calmed down, I'm beginning to understand. But definitely this was quite hard to grasp when the whole thing happened. But interestingly, she, and many others have told me to learn how to say this simple two-letter word: NO.

There... I've finished bitching. Just remembered that I want to arrange an a cappella arrangement of "Eagle's Wings" for the possible LWMC a cappella group, which may comprise of me, Mike, Yu Hsien, Ping-Ping andVal. But I've invigilation tmr morning - Math Paper 1. 2h paper. Major paper, where al the invigilators are down. So better get enough sleep. Can't be caught falling asleep halfway through invigilation... :p