It's gone...

My singing voice is gone. Have been trying very hard to teach the new NDP song to my music classes, but it's always very strenuous. It's either I have a zipper/white sound or I crack in between registers. Not as smooth as it used to be.

It's so bad now till I've totally lost the joy of singing - singing during church worship, serving in the Praise Team, singing with the alumni choir... I don't even enjoy the KOK sessions now. Singing songs in the car also becomes unenjoyable. So right now the only singing I do is constrained to the bathroom. The fact that I now can't do what I love to is really making me feel depressed... Thank God that I am still able to play the piano, but it'll also be lost if I don't keep up the practice...

I saw the ENT doctor last Monday. He told me that the lower part of the larynx is inflammed due to reflux. He gave me very stock answers - eat regular meals, no drinks 1h before bedtime, no food 2h before bedtime, no coffee, tea, alcohol, spicy food. Very trivial, but I guess I have to consciously remind myself to stick to these things and "change my lifestyle"...