Something I did while on MC...

As though I'm not depressed enough.

Took this online test just now. These were my results.

Disorder	Your Score
Major Depression:	High-Moderate
Dysthymia:	Moderate
Bipolar Disorder:	Slight-Moderate
Cyclothymia:	High-Moderate
Seasonal Affective Disorder:	Slight-Moderate
Postpartum Depression:	N/A
Take the Depression Test

No wonder mummy says I'm showing signs of depression and frustration...

On MC...

Took my "long-overdue" MC yesterday and today. Had the sore throat on Wednesday already. So reckoned I should rest my voice in case it gets worse. But woke up this morning with a cough. Guess it's not any better.

So spent 2 days at home trying to set my Common Test paper, as well as doing up my MED871 assignment. At least the good company of ppl I have on MSN make my sickly life a bit more bearable.. thanks, guys! :)

And of course the thought of missing RHD, Contact Time and CCA made me smile... :)

Back to work.

I hate myself!!!

Argh!!! How I hate myself!!!

I hate myself for acting faster that I think!!! And because of that I have a privilege taken away from me! And I don't think I'll ever have it back! If only I thought of my actions first!!!

And many other reasons why I hate myself... for having the lack of confidence to voice out my views... For not being independent enough... for the lack of artistic creativity... for the lack of handicraft skills... for just being the jack of one trade and a master of none...

I just hate myself... Do I resign to the fact that God made me all of the above...???

Really hate myself especially for what I did as described in paragraph 2...

HATE MYSELF, HATE MYSELF, HATE MYSELF!!!