A prayer of desperation

Lord, give me strength to face a new day of challenges, esp in areas of work where I am totally at a loss of what to do. Help me to learn from my mistakes, and to face the consequences. May the people affected by my mistake grant me grace to learn from them. I commit this whole matter into Your hands. In Jesus's Name, Amen!

Qualities of my ideal guy....

Met H2 for dinner yesterday. Probably what would be considered a "date", if it is defined as " when (two) people are physically together in public"  (Source: Wiki) It was a good "date" - had great Jap food, dessert at tcc and had very good conversations about life, work, career, music..... During the 4.5h, there wasn't any awkward moments of silence. We went on dutch. I think we didn't expect to pay so much for our dinner, and dessert was admittedly quite atas.... (And we were spotted, by A of all ppl.....)

So anyway.....

I've been wanting to write this post for a long time, but either I have no time to do it, or Blogger on the iPad is screwing up. 

I've been praying for the ideal guy in my life all the while. I thought Z was the one, but God had other plans. I'm still praying, but God seemed to have yet to answer. I was then given advice to write down the qualities of my ideal guy and pray over these qualities everyday. This turned out to be a success for Joy and Teresa, whose prayers have been answered by God.

So here it is... the qualities of my ideal man:

• Must be a strong Christian with strong spiritual grounding (so that he can encourage me spiritually, for I am spiritually weak);
• Must appreciate music (he need not need to play an instrument, though that'll definitely be a bonus. But at least he must be appreciative of music so that we can go for various concerts together. Oh! If he can sing and loves singing, that'll be best!);
• Must be IT savvy (to help me solve my IT problems);
• Must have a driver's license (he need not have a car - he can always drive mine... after I ascertain that he is safe!);
• Must have a sense of humour and able to make me laugh;
• Must be witty (I find such guys charming);
• Must have the spirit of excellence and be good in all his does (I'm always charmed by men who exude that kind of confidence and perfection when they do something);
• Must give me a sense of security;
• Must be able to make decisions for me (to give me a break from making the decisions all the time);
• Must allow me to share my joys and struggles, bounce ideas off him, and to correct me (lovingly and in truth) if what I'm doing is wrong;
• Must be genuinely concerned about me, and love me for who I am, and must love me more than I love him (and allowing me to love him too);
• Must be gentlemanly enough to make me feel like a woman (he need not be a romantic and buy me flowers all the time...)
• Enjoying photography is a bonus!

There... I think I have listed them all. This is definitely not in order of importance - was just writing down what came to my mind. I'm not sure if this is too many qualities to ask for, and whether a guy who meets all these qualities does exist (not even Z!) 

With this, I will commit to praying everyday for the Mr. Right to come into my life. Lord, in Your mercy, hear my prayer.

I'm held by Your love

Introduced to this song that sings of who we are in Him & His promise to us

Prayer to start the week.

Am starting this week with many concerns, especially on the work front - framework, budget, procurement, exam comm stuff..... processes which I'm still not familiar with but expected to learn the ropes fast... Need Your wisdom here, especially to prioritise!

This week, help me to remember to turn to You for wisdom, and not do things in my own strength. May You also grant me helping angels to either lend a helping hand or a listening ear. Amen!

Dear Z...

I miss you sooooooooooo much!!! Ever since the dream I had of you 4 nights ago, I cannot stop thinking about you! I spent tonight recollecting my memories of you - re-reading our conversations on MSN and my journal of our times spent together. I cannot help but cry in my heart as I read those, regretting the things I've done wrong, as well as the things I shiuld have done but didn't do. Alas, it's too late for regrets now....

I have tried hanging out with other guys, namely A, G and Y. Each of them remind me of you in one way or another - A for photography; G for being IT-savvy; Y for being sometimes sarcastic and speaking his mind. But they cannot be what you are to me...

It is sad that I cannot turn to anyone for comfort, which is why I'm typing this. It also gets more depressing especially before a start of a new term at a still-unfamiliar environment. I pray, as I write this letter to you and committing it to Him, that you will be my guardian angel and watch over me wherever you are, and I trust that He will meet my needs. Know that I love and miss you, always and forever.

Love,
Me.

You Alone Can Rescue...

A song I learnt recently, singing of God's Salvation - He alone can rescue, He alone can save.

Words of Wisdom

Words of wisdom from a CPDD Director:

(When entering a new organisation), "aim to build up and not tear down the systems that currently exist".

Something to bear in mind when I enter a new organisation....